Crossroads...

Life never ceases to amaze you, especially at the turns and bends and more often at the defining moments of life..
more often than once, we will arrive at junctions, crossroads where we need to make life defining decisions, where our lives will be changed forever depending on our choice we make at that junction. we cannot go back once we made our choice and step onto the path we have chosen, there is no going back and we may sometimes wonder about "what if" scenarios if we took the other path.
just like The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
Now once again, i arrive at the dreaded crossroad again, and once again, i have to make a choice, which is more difficult to make than the last.
Now, i'm facing tough decisions, decisions that must be make no matter how hard they are.
All my friends have moved on in life, finding a different meaning, a different sense and a different purpose, all matured and finding the last piece of their life's jigsaw, whereas i'm still stuck here, rooted to the spot, having make no decision whatsoever.
now, decisions must be made each with their pros and cons, but as people always said, follow where your heart leads you.
should i still wait at where i stand now, waiting with all the hope that it will come to me eventually but this is so stupid, as we just can't be sitting ducks and wait for any good stuffs to happen to us.
or should i change back to my old lifestyle, turn back the clock to over a year ago, and just lead a normal but boring life, without knowing about the best damn thing in this world, how it feels. if i go back, i will be like a hollow shell once more, and never to be filled for the thing i encountered during my joyful and enjoyable year of form 5 wont be back and might never be.
or the last option is just walk on, choose the desire path that i was meant to go on, go straight on into the unforseeable future, walk away from the memories that give joy and pain at the same time, it's all so confusing but felt nice at the same time, something that gives me a hope to hope for. but all that is tearing things apart, uprooting all things that was held dear and important in my chapter of life.
Anyway, i have chosen what my heart tells me to do, to go on with life, what happened in the past cannot be changed and what is wrong might not me righted, all might be too late, too late for repair. so i should go on, and try to find what life will offer to me as what it offers to my best buddy, who have completed the jigsaw puzzle of life. i will go on, life goes on and won't ever stop, and so will i, i will be left behind in the pursuit for life. Although i have chosen to go on, not every part of me goes on, there is still a sliver of me, with a glimmer of hope still standing at where i stood at that crossroad, still waiting even with feeble hopes that everything will eventually fall into place and i shall know my answer by then, it maybe harsh, it maybe sweet, but no matter what the outcome, there is still a portion of my soul still waiting, and will forever shall wait there for the answers i seek and to safeguard the memories that will forever be a defining paragraph in my chapter of life.

THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES...